anaesthesia

so. i got i wanted, a back-to-back internship with both companies. i am happy and really thankful, but there is no delirious joy in this news. after yesterday.

so, i guess it's not a good idea to be honest after all.

all will come and all will go. but there is no good in being truthful after all. i'm beginning to understand why people tell lies to themselves now. let us all pretend to be happy and dandy people. let us all ignore our pains and thrive on visions of grandeur and happiness that may now never occur.

TORONTO

here i come !!!!!!!

morgan & murphy.

i have whined to everybody who was willing to listen about the fate of my internship. morgan is as good as gone. so, it's bye to finance at big foreign bank & cushy pay to tax assistant at pwc. my pay has been cut by possibly more than half ! i feel demoted, and it's not like i did anything terribly wrong to deserve this, except to intepret the school's policy wrongly. which i have pleaded and explained to the school's career office many times, that the policy wasnt put across clearly enough to students.

alas, i should stop whining and accept my fate. i know there are alot of people out there who are still struggling to find internships and i guess an internship at the big 4 isnt too shabby. maybe i have a blindingly bright future working at the big4 and some God up there (i'm just not sure who) is showing me the way. haha. i do believe that things happen for a reason after all. and that we never realize the reason until a while later. it's just like how i remembered feeling crushed that i couldnt go overseas to study on a scholarship. but looking back now, boy am i glad that i'm not bonded to some stuffy stat board for 6 years or so. so, things do happen for a reason after all !

and on a positive note, at least i know i'm good enough to get an internship at ms despite being year 2 and all. i shall pretend i rejected ms to work at pwc. hur hur hur hur. meanwhile i shall pray that the pwc internship is really fulfilling and that i wont be just filing taxes to IRAS.

also, on a completely superficial note, my ipod nano purchase plans are gone with my now shitty intern payyyyy.

.....

i cant work at morgan stanley because of SCHOOL POLICY. which states that i'm supposed to accept the first offer even if the application is not made through the system. somebody please stab me right now.

i have audit lesson tomorrow.

s;dflkahsd;flkawhr;kjgsahgfo8w3Y BR9;lkdhfgo fh;aoiehiwhrileyfp9ads876fvp8ewtg87rtgh3ke 89yrp2837hna0r68h6gbczhdzjk,fshbgiod

sorry i just needed to rant.

so what if i've been getting C+ at audit ! i got the internship i wanted ! audit can kiss my assssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss. :)