twenteen

asoc day with the asoc day head. who looked so adorable as alice in wonderland.
pretty ballons !
birthday dinner at straits kitchen. really yummy malay, indian & chinese local fare.
no longer a teen.

the lovely people who barged in with a cake during corp meeting. :)))
with a stuffed mouth.
and when photobooth takes over, everybody goes abit crazy.
elena has coool hair !
this is a very horrifying picture.

so my 20th birthday is almost gone now. i was really expecting to have a very quiet birthday with everybody reallly busy with projects and schoolwork ! so i really did appreciate the cake & the giraffe underwear and everything else. :) that was friday, which coincided with asoc day. asoc day was much better this year, save for the rather glaring technical glitches. but otherwise, all good.

so my actual birthday, today, was a quiet affair. dinner at hyatt with the family. the rest of the day was spent calculating financial ratios with pccw, and now i'm supposed to be completing some report. booo.

meanwhile, really appreciate those who remembered ! :)

i give up

on class participation.

i am not outspoken, un-self conscious, loudly inquisitive, and will never be.

it's soo tiring to be hardworking. i dont remember ever putting that much effort into work. but here, you know no matter how much think you put in, there will always be a dozen others or more who put in way more than you do. and at the end of the day, it doesnt matter if you know you can probably do much better than others if you put in the same amount of effort. no one cares.

okay, that was alot of put ins. haha.

feeling rather uninspired by what i'm studying. just number-crunching, going through the motions. recalling content. nothing very simulating. i'm pretty sure what i learn will be useful in the future, but it's just not something that would motivate me to explore more or deal with in the next 20 years of my life. just like how i read somewhere in thomas friedman's book, about how lawyers & accountants go for painting or gardening classes in their free time for fun, but no gardener will every do someone's tax for fun. well, i'm sure there are people who have a passion for accounting, but i guess i'm not one of them. not yet at least. maybe finance will do it for me. hur, i dont know.

well just one of those i-dont-know-what-i'm-doing-with-my-life posts. probably borne out of the mindnumbing number of projects and work to be completed. and the intensity of school. not the good kind of intense.

i just want everything to be effortless again. but i guess that's just wishful thinking on my part. -wistful smile-

the break that was not.

at alicia's house for steamboat


at MA meeting.

it's the last day of the break already. and i have attempted many times to plough through hutchinson's financial report for corp, and the textbook too. but to no avail. and now i have grey's in my laptop. i finally get grey's, in the middle of a very hectic school term-of all times. so i end up telling myself--since i cant absorb anything for corp, i might as well as watch grey's !

so nothing really gets done at this rate.

oh, and i got the internship. with jiayan so at least i have company ! but i'm effectively throwing away my holiday in december with this internship. i cant even go away on a 3day getaway. boo.

and i still hate my hair.

wowwowweeewee

I BALANCED IT !

okay the euphoria has faded somewhat. but after pouring for hours over my group's budget, i finally balanced the balance sheet ! actually it wasnt hours, it was more like 1.5 days. so this took a huge load of my shoulders. i was really quite worried that we wouldnt balance it in time for our presentation.

so... i am PLEASED. :)

but, i had an awful haircut lately ! my hair is a mess. the top of my head is so poofy because of extensive layering. and i hate layering. but the guy told me he'll only layer a little. by the time i saw the pile of hair around my chair, it was abit too late. and my fringe is just... weird.

also, i had my internship interview that day. it was alright. except the interviewer mentioned that i was the only candidate that didnt ask any questions about the position. but i really didnt have any because he explained the role so thoroughly. plus, i gave him the huh? look when he asked me what i felt about the environment of the office. argh, i really need to brush up on my interview skills. well, at least experiences like this will prepare me for next time ! although i do have this deep unspoken fear of never getting a job because of my interview skills. or lack thereof. haha.

and to reward myself for completing the very arduous task of balancing the balance sheet, i shall not do anything productive until the end of tomorrow !

oh, it's what you do to me.

before corp i think. elena has a strange tendency of whipping out her camera during corp. of all classes. haha.
we look so white here.
mindy's birthday !
us :)

i finally have some time to do a proper post ! school has been... intense. my mid terms were horrendous, to say the least. CAT left me completely stumped and in shock. year 2 is blah. i havent really uttered anything for class participation. and my mpw prof doesnt even know i'm from his class. there was breakfast catered today for my class and he thought i was some random person who came for the food. sigh. i guess i can pretty much conclude my class participation grade for that module already.

and my midterm break is finally here ! although i would probably end up in school for most of my break doing projects. but, before i embark on any projects, i'm going shopping tomorrow ! it's been way too long. and it's a well deserved shopping trip, i believe. school's the shit.

yay i can finally watch tv tonight !