circle of trust.

jiayan bel elena me and mud during ct class
many embarrassing pictures of mud, but i didnt put it up. so kind.
my ct group.
the collage i made during bgs class today.

i'm in a really good mood now ! even though i have stats test tmr, twc presentation, econs report submission. must be the nap i took. and the fact that i'm almost done with econs. i dont hate econs. in fact, i really like it. except my group SUCKS. their incompentence baffles me.. so i ended up writing 12 pages out of a 23 page report. and i still think the report is a lump of shit.

but other than econs, my project groups this term are really nice. so i'm thankful. :)

ohh yess. we're celebrating the end of twc by gorging on dimsum and staying over at elena's house tomorrow!

meanwhile, i have loads to do. but i'm feeling all fine & dandy ! :)

hello, goodbye

some nice pictures we took before i start whining.
during stats class.
and after that. showing off powerpuff stickers elena stuck on our matric cards.

okay. my econs group SUCKS. two weeks, and they have pretty much the same research as before. and they are doing the main part. which really sucks. one keeps complaining about how he cannot find information. if cannot, go library or write or something else la ! and today, i opened the document of another person's individual part. i thought she had a fair bit of intelligence as compared to the rest so i was expected at least half-decent work. and i nearly died when i read it. 3 page, double spacing of crap, which i can type in 15 minutes.

so i sent out an email demanding that everybody send me their individual parts by sunday, and that they research alot more. i'm helping some of them with their parts. but some of my friends think i shouldnt because it might be individually graded. and since my supposed individual part is rather small, i should just do my part well. but i already started on extra parts. so maybe i should just tell the prof that i'm doing a disapproportionate amt of work. but that's rather bitchy right. right.

and i'm just rambling and whining.

how.

oh yes, i have another 2 reports and a presentation next week. one of which, we decided to change topic yesterday.

so i guess this explains my whiney and ice cream-gobbling mood. :(

pop! goes my heart.

after days of pondering...i have decided to do summer term ! summer term is expensive. $600. i feel quite bad that my parents have to pay so much for my education. so maybe i wouldnt join them in china/hongkong. :(:( although i badly badly badly want to go hongkong.

oh and i'm doing summer term because i think i'll probably major in quantitative finance ! but the course list is really quite scary. it's quite...exciting i guess, minus all the computing modules. i can imagine myself getting C pluses for computing mods and wailing to myself in the lab or smt. :(

next week is the last week of school ! but alot of work is due then. and with my very very laid-back groups this term, everybody can just watch me die next week. i'm quite thankful i have nice project groupmates this term, perhaps to make up for a particularly horrible & digusting one last term.

oh and music & lyrics was nice ! it's short and sweet. and the stupid song is stuck in my head. i love drew barrymore's clothes in the movie ! and hugh grant was just being silly. he is flabby too.

oh i have heroes noww. but i havent watched it yet because i'm afraid i'll spiral out of control like leesynyi. hahaha.

stars in your eyes.

being bored during our ct project..
we took so many pictures, my comp died when i was uploading them.

we look so comfyy with the pillows.
making up benny the tranny.

decided i shouldnt put any pictures of benny the tranny because it's really quite embarrassing for him. not like many people read this but stilll.... maybe when my ct project is done i'll upload the whole video here ! :)

i'm tired from ct project. never knew filming to be so much effort. i acted 3 scenes and filmed the rest, and i was dead beat. i was the maid who got abused by the tranny. stupid tranny rained tiny fake oranges aon me and pinched me. hahaha. i'm quite hopeful for our murder mystery ! and if we do well we're going to treat benny, who went through much humiliation. and more, when the class views the video. i am proud to say that i supplied the tennis balls. you know, to create that part of the female anatomy.

thank goodness elena sent me home and tuition was postponed. i keep having nice people send me home this week ! actually only twice, but i live really really out of the way.

oh yes. i'm finally going to dye my hair tomorrow. my hair colour is horrendous now. the brown is so bright, it's sick. i cant wait to have dark hair. well at least now i'll never let myself get cheated at the hair salon again.

i want my black hair nowwww.

updateupdates

this is what we do at unproductive twc meetings.
mud & i look insane.
goofing around.

and this is us during out greyyy day. notice we're all wearing grey !

now u know why my twc meetings are always unproductive. mud hijacked karl's camera phone and it all started. -_- but nevermind, at least my group is quite fun. except i think we will die when the deadline is near. i hate twc class. i cant quite bring myself to feel interested in it....

and my AS presentation went surprisingly well today ! me elena synyi & mindy were being terribly unprepared and nervous. because we really didnt do much. plus our slides were kinda ugly. and the group ahead of us had gorgeous slides, diagrams, and even notes for the class. but john williams flashed the thumbs up sign to us twice ! and didnt stop to ask us any questions. good ol' brit guy. :) :) :)

and because i was in a rather triumphant mood, i went to get my pretty silver havianas. my birks were ruined yesterday when i quite embarrasingly got my feet stuck in sticky orange mud. and they're always getting soaked by the rain. so i decided i should get a new pair of slippers.

many many project deadlines ahead. but at least school is ending in 2 weeks. after which i will have my exams and be done with a year at smu. sweet.

i want to watch music & lyrics !!!

Dear Students of G6,

You have been sent this e-mail because as of now, you are scoring dangerously low on class participation (between 0 to 5% out of 15%).
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There are 3 sessions left, Weeks 10 to 12, for you to make a difference on your Class Participation grade. Think of it this way, without class participation, you will be starting this course on 85% out of 100% (i.e. impossible to get A+, and possibly impossible to get A as well). BGS isn’t exactly that difficult a module to do well, so please try your best for the remainder of the course.

SUCKSSSSSSSSS.
my school is damn screwed up.
and i was thinking of not going for bgs anymore after my test next week. nevermind, i think i will just be resigned to getting a B for bgs, and hope that stats will pull my gpa up !!

ohwell, at least the TA was nice enough to warn people like me. ):

v.

something in the way.. of what.
something more than keeping the faith.
is desired.

i think i'm going to name my daughter lyla. it's such a pretty name. and lyla is immortalized in.. lyla.

Hey, Lyla
The stars are about to fall
So what d'you say, Lyla

so there, my daughter will be called lyla. on a rather frustrating note, my laptop is slowwww. and i have a firewall problem. so i cant download from limewire. i want alot of songs. please donate me songs. ):

and i didnt feel the tremors from the indonesian earthquake at alll. my sister's office was evacuated. and quite alot of places were affected. i didnt feel anything ! so unexciting. i feel left out.

my bgs assignment 2nd assignment got scraped ! i just hope the weightage doesnt add to class participation. if not, i will just do exceedingly badly. my bgs prof is really nice guy, but the bgs text is just gross. and we have a test next week covering seven chapters. but nvm ! i shall rely much on my mcq elimination skills, and some readings of course.

heroes is shaping up nicely. i heart hiro nakamura. i think if i had to choose a power, i would be able to read people's minds. selectively. i dont want to hear everybody's thoughts. so noisy.

i have a terribly long day tomorrow. should get some rest !

because

i am sick of this shit.
and because,
things are not evening out.
like they're supposed to.
they're always supposed to.
but they dont. and they never.

the waiting kills.

i can seriously die of angst.
or anger. or resignation. or hate.

where'd you go

some long overdue waikiki pictures from elena's cam.
our pushball team. :)

i'm putting up these mandatory happy pictures because the post is going to be gloomy.

econs sucked. but the feeling i got during the test was familiar. like taking an s-paper and writing trashy answers. i can only hope others sucked more than i did. hur.

meanwhile, . sigh, i'm not quite sure what to write here.



you know the place where you used to live
used to barbeque up brugers and ribs
used to have a little party every halloween
with candy by the pile
but now you only stop by once and a while
i find myself just fillling my time
with anything to keep the thought of you from my mind
i'm doing fine
and i'm planning to keep it that way
and you can call me if you find that you have something to say
and i'll tell you: