where'd you go

okay i just finished my high heels ppt presentation. managed to dig out pictures of men in heels, like john travolta in saturday night fever.

and,i blocked my ltb groupmate. yay me. i refused to listen to the guy spout nonsense on msn anymore. and my ltb group is completely f***ed up. there's one guy who's doing everything, and of course, i try to help him. am kind and a good person after all. but the rest just vegetates that, and be useless. or they pretend to be helpful. and talk alot and volunteer to do stuff, but the stuff never gets done. might as well shutup and stay at home, really.

and if any of them finds this blog, i'll be screwed for peer appraisal. hehheh. but i'll risk this and rant.

family's driving into malaysia soon i think. then i can stock up on dvds, like grey's. been wanting grey's since forever! but never got my hands on it, for some reason or another. and prisonbreak! now i cannot stand watching just 1episode a week. i can rot in front of the tv after my exams! :D

i got denim shorts at this woodlands place for 15bucks! and they sell those for at least 20plus at fareast. except there was no fitting room. so i thought i was very slim and skinny and bought 26. it was too tight. so my triumph at finding this shorts was dampened, slightly. nevermind! i shall get an exchange next week. that place sells very nice nasi lemak too! except it's almost derelict. very old and unventilated.

i have meeting tomorrow at 7pm. 7 is a stupid time. meeting with the aforementioned lovely project groupmates.

bah.

19

am 19 , and old.
this birthday was comparatively uneventful. and thanks to those who wished me! very much appreciated. =)

met my mommy for dinner. and bought some dirt cheap tank tops. 8 bucks! i was digging in the tray for the tops. am becoming an auntie. getting old, really. haha.

awful, awful week ahead. project meetings and presentations to last me a lifetime.

what is wrong with jajah!! i've been trying to log in for the past half an hour! so frustrating. time is running. sometimes i really hate the time gap. save for the morning calls.

hmmrph, FA class tomorrow on a nice saturday morning. am very tired from the day. but i want to make this call. and jajah is fucking slow!

if i just lay here-

the prestige was weird. i think the director/scriptwriter/ the person who came up with the storyline is completely warped. i think it's the nolans who came up with this movie. you have to be reeeally twisted to think of a magician killing himself everything he performs his trick! but it was quite engaging, in a weird kind of way. and at the end, i concluded that i preferred christian bale's character, even though i thought he was a complete ass at the beginning.

and i didnt even know of this movie ! haha, i'm horribly out of touch. so embarrasing.

today was good because i was feeling completely lazy. i think it's the awfully chocolate cake i had in the morning. hoho. i was just webcaming haynes during business law. and i didnt bring anything to study while waiting for my ltb meeting. and it was during that wait that me and synyi decided to watch the prestige! i waited for her meeting to end and then we dashed off in a cab.. to cathay. because of the rain. and hurry bought oyster meesua and ate it in the theatre.

so i felt blissfully lazy today. and i've been spending alot of cash on ltb projects. nevermind. am big hearted, generous girl. i shall stay at home tomorrow, read up, and eat maggi mee for lunch.

school would be bearable with more of these kinda lazy days.

i missed doing the wake-up call today!

back to sixties.

these are the pretty light bands that we put up.
and an extremely blur picture of me and hidayah. all i had was my lousy camera phone.

it was asoc day today. i took a few pictures but they are all in random pple's camera. so all i can leave here are the two very lousy pictures from my phone camera. it was quite nice to see everybody decked out in retro gear. and i managed to get my hands on one of those free earrings. after that, highly energetic year 2s took to the non-existent dancefloor. so me and hw just sat on the sofa and laughed at a certain girl dancing.

retro is in. they're playing bonnieM on radio now! i think my parents will be pleased. they like that Sunny song that i'm hearing on radio now. everybody's going retro now! and i've been bobbing to abba songs that my parents blast in the car. gimme, gimme gimme!

and i like giving morning calls . i like shouting wakeywakey rise & shine! to a very sleepy person. hoho .

geek in the pink.

i just came from vivocity. it's packed. i nearly died in gap. but i still managed to get a pair of skinny jeans from gap. fitted me like a glove! and it was my birthday present from mummy. so yay me. forever 21 is nice and big and not stuffy. unlike the one at wisma and the ones i visited in us. after a while i cant really breathe in there. but the one at vivocity is well ventilated.

and vivocity is quite ugly.. from the outside. i was expecting something that would blow me away from all the hype. but it looks like a warehouse from the outside. and the name, vivocity, is very ugly too. they should think of a nicer name for something so big.

the shops didnt disappoint though. ;)

but i shall never go there on a public holiday again.

meanwhile, i shall strive to be a geek. since i dont really like my schoolmates that much, and school, for that matter, i shall bury my tiny head in books. hurry finish up all my courses and get out of this shithole, in hopefully 3.5 years time. wish me luck!

scofieeeeeld

i cabbed home for scofield today. i cant believe i alighted at yiochukang with synyi to cab home. and i think dominic purcell has got lots of charisma. he is quite attractive indeed. i think i'm abit mad. but school's really driving me crazy.

i went to dermatologist today. better now, before i become too ugly to step out of house. and i was quite depressed after seeing my own picture. u know how they like to take closeups? and the camera will have this brilliant flash that will magnify and redden your pimples by ten times. at least that's what i think. then u look gross and disgusting.

driving today was good fun. i had a much stricter instructor but it felt like a useful, value-for-money lesson.

and i 'll be ridiculously busy for the next two weeks. so i'll be seeing more of school. like i dont already hate school.

where is wentworth? =(

i thought today was thursday. so i sat myself in front of the tv at 9.55pm, eagerly anticipating prison break. then i saw dick lee and denise keller looking at jewellery on tv and was wondering what was taking prison break so long to start. and i realized it was wednesday.

now i feel very disappointed and sad and cheated.

and my euphoria after the completion of biz law presentation & test was very very short lived. because i kinda realized i have ltb report& presentation, comms individual presentation, FA test, FA presentation in the same week. what kind of nonsense week is that.

so life is only going to get busier in subsequent terms. how tragic.

i hide it rather well, but i really do miss certain things.

oh, bring it baack to me.

! i am greeen with envy. jaya just sent pictures of cornell. and it's pictureresque! charming, indeed. but i guess for me, any campus surrounded by woods, autumn-kissed trees, lakes and fields would be very very pretty. because obviously i wouldnt see campuses like that here. my campus just thinks its very cool for being situated in town,and for being infused with those high technology.

there is something wrong with this project group mate of mine. he wants to bind an assignment. that is like, only 3 pages long. and he 'guides' us on what to write for assignment. and he thinks he is really psychic or something just because he had some 'religious epiphany'. he asked me to think of a number betw 1-10. and he tried to guess what it was.

he failed miserably.

and he is surprised! because i'm the only person whom he hasnt guessed the number right. well, obviously. clearly i dont sync with weirdos .

this is why, i dont like smu.

smu is like the haze. it's irritating, disgusting, and stifling. but you just have to deal with it.

oh well.

zzz

i think all the math i did in jc has retarded my brain. i cant seem to memorise anything anymore. and i have whole chunk of business law to remember. so everytime i start on a new chapter, i forget the previous one. it's very irritating.

and at this rate i will never finish driving. i keep cancelling my lessons because of stupid project meetings.

i am very sleepy.

i want to go on an exchange NOW.

i want something remotely interesting to happen in my life.

and, i want to keep a little puppy.

far east queens.

am back from a very fruitful trip to town. but of course, i am now quite poor.
met the glendalee and tammylim, and it seems that everytime we go out, we end up at fareast. and i bought yet another outfit. tights! i havent really tried the whole leggings-look but now i can!

so today was a good break from the slew of project meetings. the average smu student's idea of a break is to go mambo or something, but mine is to hit the mall!

but alas, the euphoria from shopping lasts for only so long. now i'm back to being miserable again. i cannot wait to go on exchange or smt, so i can get out of this shithole, for a while at least.

bloody school. =(

speakerboxx

hello i am in the middle of my most disgusting week.
and it's my mid term break. i'm supposed to be fat and happy and waking up at noon but no, i wake up at 7.30 everyday. because i have something called business law presentation.
and since it's law, you can discuss and debate until your face turns blue, and you still wont get a conclusion.
so i've been pretty much buried under business law this few days.
and my primary-school tendencies are creeping up! i have this very strong urge to ask everybody to keep quiet and listen to me, and to do the assignment my way. but of course, i smile and be polite and i try to listen to others.
and i have a feeling i might end up editing the entire written assignment, but that's not a very nice thing to do.
eeeurgh. smu is turning me into a nasty person.

i have a mouthful of ulcers. the mid-term break's terribly grim. why is my school the only stupid university that makes people do so much project work. what is the point, u tell me!!!

sigh, now i just sound abit insane.
bye.

still hazy skies

i am slowly dying here.
the haze is unbearable. i can feel my lungs blacken by the minute whenever i'm outside. we are all going to die of some respiratory disease, thanks to our forest-burning friends.

and i am doing the dumbest 1000-word essay ever. my leadership reflective paper. i was extremely tempted to write about my group mates as a challenge. but i figured it'll go beyond a thousand words then. and everything in uni is counted. so i really shouldnt write rubbish, like what i did for my comms assignment.

urghh. i feel very bitter. i am shrouded in a thick cloud of dust, and i have to write an essay on leadership. and analyse robinson's annual financial report. and think of how to sell high heels to men. and advise bee-ling if she can sue aruna. and i'm talking nonsense now.

on a brighter note though, i have been looking at fire mountain gems jewelry maker's catalog. and this catalog is the most amazing thing ever! they have all the beads in the world. and all the earring hooks in the world. acrylic, pearl, gemstones, everything! and as i flip through the catalog i have images of myself designing the most beautiful earrings and necklaces ever! and everybody will be really awed by my lovely designs! my mom's quite excited too. she's worse than me. she has folded pages and figured out, for real, how to make these things.

hazy skies.

this isnt brian. it's zabil, at least that how i think his name is spelt. so cute right. but bringing the kids around the zoo drained me quite abit. i wanted to die by the time we were at the kangaroos.

think i will miss the sillys quite abit. they're an awfully noisy bunch, but rather endearing.

i just watched prison. omg, i was very traumatized by the toe-cutting incident. and i think scofield's new cellmate is hilarious, especially when he delivered that line about how he has some nerve problem, and doesnt sleep. i mean, that poor guy just wants to rescue his brother, and probably spent his lifetime planning how to do so. then his toe gets cut off, and some guy is plotting to pull his intestines out. and lastly his cellmate is a psychotic freak who doesnt sleep.

and i was highly irritated when leticia left for a smoke. she died in the bushes in the end. smoke somemore la. idiot.

i have to be in school at 7.30am tomorrow to rehearse for a presentation. i am mildly horrified.

treasures

here am i, saddled with the burdens of uncompleted projects . and i am blogging.

well, i was digging up for old stuff to donate to the kids tomorrow and i came by stashes of letters, autograph books, valentine day knickknacks. left from those years at school.

and it was quite painful to read through everything. in a bittersweet kind of way. because i guess we wouldnt really receive such cute little notes anymore. and the fact that everybody's growing up is quite painful. and as we grow up, we become too absorbed in our lives to keep in contact with the people we once shrieked, howl, laugh and bawl with.

i have sweet little entries of primary school friends in my little mermaid autograph people that i dont recall knowing. and i have pretty birthday&valentine's day notes from jc. and embarassing neoprints from those secondary school days.

will we all just grow up, and forget?

and i guess things will always be different now. looking through all my dusty old stuff reminded me of how much i miss things as it was back then. how we all could be completely crazy and carefree. how we would never be able to do the things we used to do.

meanwhile, i shall hold these memories close. and be half grateful that i have such memories to hold on to, yet half sad that such moments wont repeat again.

not likely, at least.