handbells

okay, i went for my first handbell prac in like 2 years. and i am TIRED. and i left halfway. cuz i didnt know it was practice from nine to five and i made other plans.
i was DYING. everybody else who doesnt know a thing about handbells (which is like, the whole world, really.) are going like, what u get exhausted from holding a few bells?. It's the standing and focussing for like 4-5 hours straight. and that's only half a practice.
at least for canoeing i get to sit in a boat.
and then i'll wonder how i managed to do all that in secondary school. syf practices every morning. ancalima. performances. i had powerful calves.
but not now. and i'm really lousy at all the musical stuff now, i gotta go highlight all my notes tmr. corinne's going to be appalled this saturday. but thank goodness i think i'm still better than the sec1s.
i like jingle bells! it's nice to play.
but i think i'm gonna humiliate myself at novena square, or wherever we're peforming. I'M THE MELODY LINE FOR HALF OF THE PERFORMANCES. i just screwed myself, by offering to take that part. cuz i thought i was still skilled and able at these kinda things. (i look back at my syf year with pride and fondness). but now, terrible, terrible.
i hope corinne doesnt scold me.

okay. i am tired from today. i shall go, and wallow in misery of humiliating myself come 10, 14 december.