what do u do when your water runs dry
when your greens and blues turn to black and white

i just want to be truly, truly happy again.
like a year ago, where life was simply about school and training. and friends. and maybe going out, perhaps some studying. but that was it.
but now i just want to sleep the whole day in.
and sometimes i really despise myself.
for being the person i proclaimed to my mom i wouldnt be.
i think it's like what robin givens said on oprah. the highs were so high, and the lows were so low.
and now, it's a despairing low.