i hate it when people roll their eyes, or say things like sheeeeeesh or give withering looks. it just reeks of condescension. i never do things to people like that, no matter how annoyed i am. or if i have to do it, i'll turn away and not do it in front of them. but i seldom i get really annoyed anyway. but most people dont really do stuff like that, not to me at least. it's just plain rude, and condescending. but when it happens, gosh, it's extremely irritating.

speaking of being condescending, mr koh is a fine example of one. that man speaks to people with such condescension (whether he means it or not) it truly amazes me. thank goodness i probably dont have to deal with him anymore now that canoeing's over. and i used to think i was the only one he spoke to like that, until i told youjia and she agreed.

well, i guess it takes some skill to be condescending to people. haha. people dont even know i'm annoyed or irritated even when i am. so i can barely, condescend people. i usually just plaster on a smile. but i suppose it's hard for somebody like me to show it to others. i could be silently disliking somebody but i'll just put on a lovely smile and be nice. or i could be crying in the toilet and walk into the classroom looking like how i always do.

but then, wouldnt that make me somewhat of a hypocrite. perhaps, then. but i must add such i-really-hate-you-but-i'll-just-be-nice feelings occur extremely rarely. so most of the time i'm genuine to the people i know. and seldom do i hate people. i dislike people, but i dont hate them. A friend once told me that to hate somebody, you have to have loved him/her at some point of your life. and no matter how much we condemn hypocrites, or denouce them, i think everybody's a hypocrite to a certain extent.

i'm ranting. but ranting once in a while is quite nice. heh. that felt pretty good.

dinner's awaiting.