dashboard confessional

gp paper today was alright. i wrote on globalistion. About how countries that embrace globalisation could still remain true to its roots.
blaps.
today was awful.
waiting, waiting, waiting and waiting.
only to make a lonely trip to the station.
gahh.
i'm a big nuthead, a mofo, an idiot, and a hollaback girl!

but at the same time, i'm gonna try and be motivated to study. get a scholarship and shock my mom with stunning grades.

now, i just need to get away from the comp.

john harding- hi! didnt actually think anybody reads this, but thanks anyway!

urgh. am in an extremely foul mood.
sickening things that my family members do. like blame me whenevery somebody leaves the door unlocked, or does not wipe the damned mirror. trivial banal stuff like that. or when the forks go missing. Whenever something like that happens, it's like, wee! i'm the idiot who does that.
seriously, i cant help it if my some of my family members have brains the size of a pea and do things like that all the time. so damnit, dont push the blame to me when things go wrong.
and then there's my henpecked dad. who is so absolutely slow in doing things. like he spent nine hours on the comp, ie, at my table, typing a 2 page letter. a 2page latter! i could do that with sound english and good format in at most one hour! the speed he types is so depressingly slow.
and when i tell my mom that i'm sick and tired of moping around house with nothing much to do cuz my table is being occupied, she goes and just reprimand him alittle. and he yells at me like i just commited bloody murder.
he gets so friggin uptight when my mom scolds him and to me, he's always like seeking approval from my mom which is gross because men arent supposed to be like that.
and a 2page letter, taking nine hours. you would expect it to be rather good. my sister vets it and voila, it's brimming with mistakes and what not.
i wonder how he finished his work. it's no wonder he's always working overtime. and that the government is always complaining about our workers' productivity. it's because of people like him who take 10 hours to type a letter, and then screams at me when i just casually asked him when he would relinquish the seat to me.
!!
go and get a life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hahahaha
oh gosh. the site www.yeocheowtong.com is really funny. they banned the book escapefromparadise in singapore. no wonder. singapore practically bans everything under the sun. heh.
spent my time at the library. eating amidst the books. smoothie. roasted chicken legs. gummies. food just evaporates near my reach laarh. i always have this compulsive urge to finish every thing in a packet. Like sweets. or popcorns.
ah! mom and dad took a wrong turn and ended up at the customs. so they're stuck in a nvr ending queue towards malaysia. when actually, all they want to do is to pick me up from the library.
so i headed home myself, and waiting for dinner!
garh.
i want dinner now.

chariot

nothing much really, been studying quite abit lately.
dad wants to jog the macritchie treetop trail tmr at 7am. i'm really not too keen cuz i could do with more sleep. what, with those eyebags.
today's the last day of school before the exams. so half the world wasnt there. and, applying to US is such a damn hassle!
there's this rj sch form where all the average sat scores of rj students are printed nicely, tabulated in neat tables haha. and then u gotta ask so many teachers to recommend this, recommend that. bahh.
and i was just thinking about all these stuff, and then i realized that most people in my class, they're probably going to be somebody great next time. maybe not great, but outstanding.
like, maybe kenjom will go to MIT and be some engineer/scientist/or what not. or bong. or one of those smartiepants. then jaya's gonna be an electrical engineer at, perhaps columbia, carolyn--mechanical engineering at stanford?. syn yi, an architect designing great buildings. everybody's going to be at least above average in their field. I can just see them being engineers.
dont know about myself though.
haha. everbody says i'm gonna work as a banker for a while, then i'll quit and use up all my husband's money.
which is not true. well, unless my husband's bill gates.
ah. nvm i'll prove everybody wrong and earn millions by myself! hah!

damn, faceanalyzer.com doesnt work for me.

my hump

eeks.
i left my keys at home today so i was stuck outside for a few hours.
so i went to the library, did some chi-square but was very distracted by this woman who was scolding her kid.
and the kid's grandmama slapped him! oh gosh. but the boy seemed pretty bent on pissing his mommy and grandmom off so he probably deserved it.
i remembered how my mom used to cane my sis and i for the most ridiculous things. aye.
but anyway, i digress. i was pretty mad this afternoon at my absent mindedness because i was planning to take a nice nap in the afternoon!!
rahh.
am grumpy. blaps.

eeks my stomach hurts.
been doing some studying. it's awful when exams are here, because my pimples will start poppin' all over my face. and it's disgusting.
did some inorganic chem today, feel somewhat accomplished.
oh, mom wants me to work after As. during my 6mth break. haha, i have to. because i plan to save up for a short trip to say, hongkong/shanghai/bali. and my parents plan to take a 2-week family vacation to the US next april.my mom wants to visit california, haha. i sure hope they do, so i can buy my urbanoutfitters, a&f, and vs. online shopping is fun, but nothing beats trying out the merchandise in a changing room.
oh, andi made a pretty photo collage cuz i was extremely bored over the weekend. there's only like 4 pictures, meant to do more but i got sick of cutting. but anyhow, it's pretty and i like it.
wee. i'm thinking about next year . the holidays, and the overseas trip. and i'm happy already. i wanna visit shanghai! the shopping's really cheap and good. and i speak chinese, so i dont suppose i'll have much difficulty getting around. except i'm rather afraid of pushy china-chinese who have a reputation of not queueing up, and being loud and ill- mannered.
and bali would be great. visited that place when i was like six, or smt. so i dont have much recollections of it. i can, go be a surfer chick!
haha. alright, back to the books, really.

watched ancalima yesterday at the esplanade. it was quite good, i especially like the african pieces with the drum as the accompaniment.
i thought the syf piece was really good, wonder why they didnt get a gold.
and then i got reminded of the tempest, the piece which we played and got a gold with. haha, apparantly they attempted to play that piece, but couldnt.
my camera was screwy last night. couldnt take pictures. everything turned out really blur, much to my annoyance.
ooh, and my mom bought lovely lovely mooncakes from raffles the plaza. they're the bingpi ones, and then there's chocolate right in the middle of it. white chocolate i think. and some has rum in it. another has champagne in it! wee. just feasted on strawberries and grapes.
and, much to my disappointment, my satin shoes didnt carry my size! cuz i have absolutely tiny feet. bleagh
and statistics are an absolutely nightmare.
:(

you were meant for me, and i were meant for you

skipped school today. did some studying. physics of fluids is rather easy. heh.
and YAY! my comp can download again! i used to take 5 hours to download one stupid mp3, and today, i decide to try limwire again, and it worked!
so now i'm downloading mp3s with a vengeance,
before my stupid comp screws me up again, and i take 27593 hours download something.
so here's cheers to jewel,mariah,justin,dc,bravey crooning while i use the comp.
and oh my gosh, i saw this pair of absolutely divine looking satin flats online! they're gorgeous, i tell you. if my mommy sponsors, and if everybody dont snap up the slots for the spree once the spree opens, i'll get them!!
ah, my neck hurts.

fearless!fearless!
hee. i'm gleefully blasting my newly downloaded mp3s on my comp, bravery's on now.

today was a worse than terrible day.
gleefully cabbed back home with h. because it was very, very unlikely that anybody would be home anyway. and was looking forward to a day of fun.
and then viola!
my dad's home. but he says he'll leave for work after lunch.
so fine, we head to causeway point for lunch where we spent on some sub-standard food at jack's place. the fillet was bland, and the soup, not much of a big deal.
and then. my dad decides to take full day leave to stay at home and do housework! that makes a wonderful husband, but a disastrous dad.
and there i was, completely broke from cabbing and lunch, and i couldnt do anything much. not with my dad at home!!
and then on the way home, it pours. and i was sodding wet. and my notes and papers were all wet
brilliant.

life's been rather busy of late. caught charlie yesterday. it was alright, pretty odd though. johnny depp is just wierd in the shows.
haha. got this off h's blog. www.studentssketchpad.blogspot.com It's quite funny, u know, all the usual stereotypes of rg/sc girls and what not.
nothing much today. except school's getting more pointless. gp talk today was quite surprisingly engaging, except for a really annoying red shirt guy. and they were all talking about entreprenuership.
i'll never be a businesswoman because i'm just too damn lazy to do whatever you have to do. although it'll be pretty cool to be one.
i could like, set up a company that brings in urbanoutfitters, a&f, h&m, victoriassecret, gojane, supre! that'll be really exciting, and i'm bound to make profits because singaporeans buy these stuff online by the loads.
except i think 50000 other people have thought of that already.
aye. nvm. i'm content buying these stuff for myself.
okayy off to do my personal write for mrstoh about language. bleagh.

i hate it when people roll their eyes, or say things like sheeeeeesh or give withering looks. it just reeks of condescension. i never do things to people like that, no matter how annoyed i am. or if i have to do it, i'll turn away and not do it in front of them. but i seldom i get really annoyed anyway. but most people dont really do stuff like that, not to me at least. it's just plain rude, and condescending. but when it happens, gosh, it's extremely irritating.

speaking of being condescending, mr koh is a fine example of one. that man speaks to people with such condescension (whether he means it or not) it truly amazes me. thank goodness i probably dont have to deal with him anymore now that canoeing's over. and i used to think i was the only one he spoke to like that, until i told youjia and she agreed.

well, i guess it takes some skill to be condescending to people. haha. people dont even know i'm annoyed or irritated even when i am. so i can barely, condescend people. i usually just plaster on a smile. but i suppose it's hard for somebody like me to show it to others. i could be silently disliking somebody but i'll just put on a lovely smile and be nice. or i could be crying in the toilet and walk into the classroom looking like how i always do.

but then, wouldnt that make me somewhat of a hypocrite. perhaps, then. but i must add such i-really-hate-you-but-i'll-just-be-nice feelings occur extremely rarely. so most of the time i'm genuine to the people i know. and seldom do i hate people. i dislike people, but i dont hate them. A friend once told me that to hate somebody, you have to have loved him/her at some point of your life. and no matter how much we condemn hypocrites, or denouce them, i think everybody's a hypocrite to a certain extent.

i'm ranting. but ranting once in a while is quite nice. heh. that felt pretty good.

dinner's awaiting.

tsk. my whole post was deleted.
so anyway, my eyes have been hurting.
and school is useless nowdays. attended the first tutorial, after which my useless right eye forced me to skip the rest of the day. was in the library most of the time, doing linear spaces. then lunch at j8 and home.
i need a new pair of jeans. i really like my current one, the fit is perfect. but i need another one in a lighter wash! heh. the present one from selfridge is really nice. very unfortunate that they had to close their branches over here. i want the seven jeans! they're absolutely divine, but i have no moolah for that.
studyin's awful.
i just hope i get a scholarship and be sent to a nice university overseas. i really wanna study at london sch of econs. haha. and my frens were suggesting oxbridge, just to try, but i'm not brilliant so i wont waste money on the application. us universities are simply a hassle to apply
or maybe i'll just end up at smu. which i dont really mind because the city campus looks really cool and they have a pretty good business programs.
aiyahhhhhh. i just want the next few weeks to fly pass quickly. then i can go shopping with a vengeance. and spend my birthday money, which i assume i'm goingto get, and preparing for prom!

ah, organic chem is cannot. especially when u have a memory span of like, 5 seconds. :(
i dont really like this new cam. sure it looks pretty and everything.but the colours aint vivid at all. and the picture is always blur. even though it has more megapixels than the other one. hmm. maybe i shld tweak the settings, just that i dont know how.
my sis was talking to me bout us universities yesterday. ah. not too sure which ones to apply to, or if i shld even apply. it's such a hassle and it's so expensive to apply. i could do with more money. but right now, i'm looking at michigan and berkeley and cornell.
but then again, maybe i'll just end up in singapore because there are so little scholarships for so many people.
and hoho, staying at home is not good. because u end up eating up all the candies and ice cream out of sheer boredom. heh heh.
anyway, national day yesterday was alright. the fireworks looked pretty though it would probably have been alot nicer if i were there, at marina bay itself. but nvm.
sigh. neck aches. back aches.
and i'm too tired to do anything much, really.

my atrocious new hair! i look five! bahh.
with haowen.
yiliang's obscenely big house.
me and yash.
jaya carolyn me and janani

farewell at yiliang's house was alright. his house is, like woah, ridiculously big. one of those huge houses deep inside bukit timah. the pool, is like woah, and there's a field behind it.
the food was alright, company good. i got a little figurine from the juniors!
that said ms slim!
haha. very cute indeed.
then today was national day celebration. played some floorball and 5 min of netball. netball is just not my thing. actually, games that involve flying balls just aint my thing. haha.
us talk after that.
and my ridiculous hair style. i hate it, it's awful. i'm not going back to francis and jean.

been cooped up at home all day. until evening, where we went to a chinese medical hall to accompany mom for a visit.
chinese medical halls are interesting. there are so many weird stuff around. all the chinese medical oils, plasters and what not. all coming in vintage packaging, and there's always the founder's face plastered on the front.
then there are those cute old men weighing herbs on pink sheets of paper for the various herbal conconctions. they weigh them traditionally, with the little pan and the scale.
so anyway, accompanied my mom for her medicine, and then we left for dinner.
and i was watching an mtv show-my super sweet 16 on mtv. the girl featured was so unbelievably rich, and bloody spoiled. and for all her moolahs, the dress she picked for her 16th birthday party was awful. and she was whining, for a car! for her 16th birthday. and she screamed at her mom when her credit card was cancelled.
eee. i mean i whine too, but hey, i'm certainly not as spoiled or half as rich as that girl on mtv. i dont whisk myself to paris to buy clothes, or demand for car. because i cannot afford too. although sometimes i wish i could. haha
nah, but i'm quite satisfied with what i have now. :)

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
am extremely annoyed
i have been contorted into weird positions, suitable for china acrobats for the last half an hour, trying to figure out how to connect the digi cam into my shitty piece of computer.
it's friggin ancient, this comp. got this thing in the era where digi cams werent around yet, or at least werent so popular yet.
now my neck is hurting.
tsk.
TSK.
i want images to transfer from my cam to the comp!
but clearly, it's not going to happen until i CHANGE MY HARD DISK!
which my dad said he would, but usually, action only occurs like, 5 months later.
anyway. i watched wedding crashers today. quite funny. i like vince vaughn in the show, although i came in liking owen wilson first, because of his sexy broken nose.
am supposed to do physics today. but i'm tired from craning my stupid neck.
gahh.

haha.
this is interesting, somebody did a search on "thosai" and landed at my page.
anyway, i've been introduced to the world of gaming.
the xbox, is rather interesting. i like street-fighter style type of games, because i think i'll probably suck in the rest. i tried something called halo, and failed miserably because i didnt have a clue what was going on. so i was standing there allowing the enemies to shoot me.
not a very good period to be introduced gaming, i say.
i really wanna watch the bravery live in concert! this friday!
but sadly, i lack funds. wonder if any kind soul would donate me a pair of tickets! that'll be really, really nice.
thinking of buying their album, or shld i settle with the destiny's fulfilled.

i like my freezer! it's got b&j's cherry garcia and 2boxes of mini cornettos! lovely.

it strikes me as rather sad, and pathetic, that people have to resort to being spastic just to gain just one bit of attention.
and in the process of doing that, irk me alot.
oh well nevermind, never really a big fan of that classmate of mine anyway.

school's just dreary. and a complete waste of time.
it's not like my class is a wonderful bunch anyway, the girls are alright. well, certainly not all, but most of them at least. i cant say much for the rest.
i miss canoeing,
and all of a sudden, i miss rg, my rg class.
i miss hitting sara's muscular thighs.
i miss chee's pe class, where me and mich will head for the toilets when everybody runs.
and the ridiculous tennis lessons under richardchee.
i miss netball carn-running after a certain mtv vj and royally embarrasing myself by falling down the steps of suntec.
i miss 105 bus rides with wr, fantasizing abt goodlooking men together.
i miss the days, where i actually look forward to school
i miss fast food junking along far east.
i miss skipping school events with mich, or swim carn with wr and lynn, to gallivinate somewhere.
i miss making fun of ummuchoo and saralow.
i miss my useless bio teacher, and myself as a completely useless bio rep.
i miss making impromptu class video scenes with michelle--the one where i slid she slid her hands under my sweater so i'll look like i'm tying my hair, when i'm not. doesnt sound impressive here, but the video is hilarious.
i miss "we-are-sai", and various antics by our good ol classmate, michelle heng, who single handedly shut down the electricity of an entire level during physics prac.
i miss my lab partna wr and paula.
i miss my nice back rowmates like sara and ruina.
i miss making weirong juxtapose my face beside roddick's.
i miss rg pe! the silly rugby lessons, where weirong emerged from like rape victim. softball.
there are like 1000 more stuff that i miss.

there's just something that's different in rj.
at least year2 in rj.
terrible, terrible.
i think i just miss looking forward to school.

school's not nice.