tension, these few days, before it all culminates on the 20july.
it's painful when i think about it. so many issues. so little time.
and then i just want to close my eyes and wish everything would pass me by and then hey, i'm happily eating at post-nats dinner.
dont want to think bout what happens before that.
i'm scared that i'll let down my partner.
and i'm frustrated that she doesnt listen.
i'm at a weird state of equilibrium. ah, everything's oddly tangled in me and i dont know how to let this out.
so i fear i might just poof, explode.

caught alotlikelove today. it was alright, alittle draggy but the ending was so sweet.
rather nice outing, except for the post-movie part. where it was a little bewildering.
so there i was, in the train, silently wondering what the hell was going on, and at the same time, battling with those emotions above. this emotional rollercoaster occurs when i'm not in the company of people. or when i'm alone, or in this afternoon's case, forced into semi-loneliness.
i pray, everything will turn out fine.
everything