outrageous

things didnt really go as well as plan.
i lost to srjc today. by a little.
am upset, naturally. but hey, i have no regrets. i think me and haowen did the best we could and we were just edged out by an opponent, that really crept out from nowhere.
and now we aint doing too great. with only 5 remaining boats, and the gold seemingly lost. tammy's race was heartbreaking to watch. hmm. on second thoughts, so were ours.
i was devastated after my race. and for a while, me and hw were just sobbing in the boat. and for a while, i was in a much too terrible state to face my teammates.
but then again, canoeing was never about the number of medals u win, or the number of races u win. it's really more about rowing the best race that u can ever row, know that with every dip of the paddle, u'll pulling as hard as you can possibly can.
and the gold might be out of sight, but as youjia says, we have more than a gold medal over here. because 10 years down, it's not the medals/races that we remember, but rather the intangibles. like the bonds you've made, and the experiences that go with it.
and my last race for raffles was good.
and as much as i whine and complain about trainings, i'm beginning to miss it all already.
haowen.yonghui.jiaying.jingting.youjia.yash.dior.glenda.michelle.tammy.jiaxin.
hmm. never expected the end of season to be so painful.
and there are no clear pictures of me and hw rowing!
damn.

we have nothing to fear, because we have nothing to lose-jiaxin(!)