hello.
my computer screen is green, i'm exhausted, all signs indicate i should go sleep, but i have to write about today.
one moment we were getting all high on food at rafflestownclub and the next, we were seated in a circle in the harmony room, bawling our eyes out.
the pre-nats talk was perhaps, the most emotional one i ever had.
and we were all talking about our aspirations, goals, and feelings about the upcoming nationals. so the voices started breaking, and the tears started flowing.
jiaying's speech was, heartbreaking. and when i heard her, i just started bawling like a kid. and to see yonghui, shed a tear, is just, not right.
we all want it so, so badly. i dont know what i'll do if we dont get the gold.
ah. this is terrible to put in words. but the crux of this, is about rowing the very best race, u know you wont regret. i think this sounds absolutely cheesy to somebody who doesnt know about canoeing, or to those who do but cant give a damn (a certain half of the rj canoe team, perhaps)
and i'm terrified. i want to make it to the finals, and well into it. fourth would be a decent position.but i fear i'll finish a race, knowing i could have done better.
i want everybody to be really really happy this friday. i want all of us to be really proud of ourselves, and to know that our 2 years of hardwork and sheer grit paid off.
i dont want to disappoint hw, nor myself, nor the team.

so yes, here's cheers to a room at fullerton for the night, and lovely lovely buffet on the house. :)