stuck in a life i couldnt wish away

not in good shape, i say.
right eye is inflammed.
over tired eyes, they say.
god knows why.
i try to sleep as much as possible.
must be the crying. 3 years of contact lenses, i never had such a problem.
well, until this year that is.
so i'm off contact lenses for a while. save for training.

came home early today.
i guess i kinda forgot the feeling of reaching home at 2.
eating instant noodles and of course, ben&jerry's.
then napping for an hour or so.
but it's quite nice.somewhat rejuvenating.
was watching mtv.
and i'm kinda disgusted by those hiphop/ra/r&b videos.
oh dont get me wrong, i'm quite a fan of this genre.
but their videos. are just so lacking in originality.
like signs by snoopdogg and jt.
them singing. and hordes of semi-naked women gyrating to their music.
yeah,i suppose it's cool if hot women dig your music.
but surely, there are other ways of doing that.
they are like, sexifying women into merely objects.
and sometimes, the content of their songs is just thrash.
like candy shop.
oh but i love their music.
just not their senseless lyrics and stupid videos featuring women pawing all over them.

anyway.
back to myself.
not feelign too good.
puffy eyes. and dark eyeshadows. somebody please buy me a good eye cream.
and i'm feeling extremely ugly.
and it's class photo-taking tmrw.
urgh.
broken conversations irritate me to no end!
bahh.
i say, 2005 is an inauspicious year.

If you feel me, sing it with me, come on, help me out!