torn and tattered

it hurts so bad.
u know u've gone too far, too deep when it starts hurting so, so bad.
yes. me the fool.
too many conflicting sides.
it's hard to trust when you're treated like that.
once and again.
and my hatred for j has deepened.
i've lost any form of respect for her.
and things are alot stranger now.
friendship-level speaking.
over two days, she and prameet have become best friends.
but me and jy cant care less actually.

breakaway. in the name of self defence.
i cant see what else i can do.

since when did loving someone become so painful?