jerk it out!

i like the song jerk it out!
hehheh.
scf's been alright.
bronze medal eh, from everybody else capsizing.
not bad. considering the amount of money we spent on paying for that stupid race. broken rudder and what not.
but my k1 was absolutely screwed up
i think i'm completely useless.
coach thinks i wont make it to nationals finals.
everybody's improving so damn fast but me.
rahh. not good. i think i shall just go row a k2 with a j1. and not torment myself with a very lonely k1.
we'll see.

progress report. percentiles are embarrasingly low.
mom's going to flip. especially with the movie fiasco this morning, where i stupidly left the movie stubs around.
wonder how it's like to get four As.
la/
everybody's flying off overseas for their tertiary years.
lucky them.
am not going to get a scholarship at this rate.
i want to go places.
like london, or "nu york, nu york!"
i want to like, learn how to live independantly.
it's not the prestige of a scholarship that beckons me
but much rather, the experience of living overseas, for a while at least.
cause as long as i remember, i had always wanted to live outside singapore for a while.
not like a 3-week vacation in europe or anything.
but a 3-year stay.

nah.
but aint easy.
i'll probably end up holed up in nus, or ntu, smu.
not like it's bad or anything,
but think about it, there's so much more to experience outside.
if only family is cash rich.